Updated: Apr 13
Happy Thursday, friends :)
I’m really excited to be sharing today’s topic with you! It’s something that I am currently experiencing, and I know many of you are, too, in your own way.
Since I began my online entrepreneurial journey back in 2018 (I have technically been an entrepreneur my entire adult life as an actress, writer, nanny, personal trainer, etc...crazy to even think!), I have been trying to find my place in the online world.
I didn’t know how I wanted to present myself online, but I knew that I was hungry for more. I wanted to make an impact in people’s lives. I wanted to share my story authentically. I didn’t want to be holed up indoors at a 9-5 job (I was the worst producer’s assistant lmao), nor did I want to continue just barely making ends meet as a nanny and personal trainer. I loved my life, but I yearned for something bigger.
As much as I love health coaching, I knew that I didn’t want to spend my life talking about just fitness. Being a coach, it’s kind of all I had to talk about with my clients even though we had very deep discussions about life and mindset. While I am immensely grateful for my experience as a coach and am so happy with the impact I made on those who trusted me enough to coach them, I once again knew deep in my soul that coaching wasn’t how I wanted to spend my time either.
Attempting to discover what my purpose beyond being an author was has been equal amounts frustrating and terrifying. It’s kind of insane to think about how much time I spent in a single day just thinking about what I wanted to pursue.
So I finally decided to do exactly what I preach to you guys: let go. Know in your heart that you will be divinely guided to exactly what you need to know in order to move forward. Let your intuition and trust lead the way.
I am so overjoyed to finally say that this happened to me TODAY. I got the most beautiful sign in the form of an email from a company that I love and support SO much. It wasn’t about what was presented to me in the email, but it was about the way I FELT when I read the email. Joy. Excitement. Thrill. Vibrance. Opportunity. Freedom. Everything I’ve been wanting to feel (and have been actively practicing recently) since I decided to go down my own path.
I felt like I was being rewarded for following my heart and just being me. The affirmation I have been repeating on a daily basis as of late is: I get paid to be myself.
Your job here on this Earth isn’t to conform to what society expects you to do. It isn’t to wake up, work, watch TV, and repeat. That leads to boredom, depression, anxiety, etc.
Our purpose on this planet is unique to every individual, but we all have a passion burning within us that was meant to be explored and shared with others.
Ignore the naysayers. Anyone who bothers to criticize your choices rather than admiring your hunger for more will never understand you, because they don’t believe what you’re doing is possible for them. The last thing you need to worry about is what people who aren’t doing what you’re doing think.
I wouldn’t be surprised if many people that I know personally believe that I’m lazy and don’t want to work because I’m not working a traditional full-time job. The reality is that I am always working. I’m constantly generating ideas for my business, working on a new manuscript, and creating content for my podcast and blog. How I can best serve my mission and purpose on this Earth in order to bring humanity closer to love is always at the forefront of my mind. Even if I take breaks in between to browse through the Jonas Brothers hashtag on Instagram and Youtube.
Little do many know, I have made so many sacrifices in order to share my work with the world. I am forever grateful for my loved ones who believed in me and my dream and provided their support along the way in the form of numerous blessings that have gotten me to where I am today.
If you’re anything like me, you have a vision but have no idea where to start or if the work you’re putting in right now is going to lead to anything. That’s what the early start of being an entrepreneur feels like. Confusion. Uncertainty. Fear. Constant questioning if you’re doing the right thing.
“What if this is all for nothing?” has popped into my mind too many times to even count anymore. The one thing I can promise you is that when alignment hits you, you will know it. Not even just know it, you will FEEL it, and it will feel like everything you’ve wanted your entire life. It feels like happiness and bliss and wonder. It’s divine. It is perfect. It is *chef’s kiss*.
How do you know when you’re in alignment? You feel fucking good even when you aren’t making a single dime just yet. You wake up excited to work. You’re all smiles despite the uncertainty. Fear exists, but it’s dull. Confusion is replaced by inspired action. You may not know if what you’re doing will give birth to big results, but you know it’s all for something. Even if that something is simply personal growth.
I am endlessly grateful for the messy action that I took when I had no clue what the hell I should be doing. I’m grateful for the mistakes. For the worry I felt when I was so scared that I would never amount to anything. For the days I cried because I thought I was a failure and that my time would never come. Thanks to these dark periods, my skin is tough and I am prepared for the worst. I know I can handle any situation that comes my way with grace and confidence.
My hope for you today is that you do even just a little bit today to bring yourself closer to your personal alignment. You owe it to yourself to feel the vibrancy that this world has to offer when your mission is uncovered.